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emmas special enough to have her name on my chest
end of story.

well i finally got blue streaks in my hair/ cut it.
you can't really tell it's blue unless you're in the sunlight, though.
oh well.
school starts monday.
getting lost trying to find my classes YAY
xP

Tags: fgcg. drdfghdfghfg
Current Location: the chairr
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: candyman - aqua

hangovers suck.
yepp i officially hate welcome back parties..

VAUGENESS ANNOYS ME.

get straight to the point , bitchh

i just got my 10th grade schedule for the year.

so far noone has the same classes as me.
except andre, that took german with me just because i was too(:
i love that boy.
sometimes i wish i wasnt so stupid as to being so afraid of being by myself at lunch.
why is it that im so scared? 
i don' think i'll ever know, but my hypothesis is that the first time i was alone wasnt a pleasant experience.
people didnt throw bricks at me or nuffin. i just dont like being stared at.
i really dont like it.

i hope this year we can all meet in mr urbaniks class, as we always did, no freshman :/
the only freshman i like isnt going to my school anyway.
and im not one of those mindless freshman haters or anything.
its just the fact that they all wanna suck my best friends genitals, only because he's older.
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maybe im taking this too seriously.
or maybe i just had too much caffeine.
sleep.
i need sleep. goodnight

Tags: age, andre, genitals, german, homeroom, lunch, schedules, sleep
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: you got the music in you - the radicals

phew it's been a while since i viewed the journal that is live 
we went to the mall today AGAIN geez >.> 

except this time i had enough money to buy black/blue hair dye.
im going to look "bombin". 
i found out materialistic friends get really lame, really fast. 
and that i have a bad habit of getting crushes on boys that just don't look at girls like me, in that way. 
whatever. 

its raining and thats all i need to make me forget about my cares and worries. weird?

Tags: too lazy to write real tags
Current Location: the computer chair ::cue dramatic music::
Current Mood: content
Current Music: electro world - perfume

and i think im finally getting rid of all the assholes in my life.
i am no longer reliant on other people for happiness.
it'll take a while, but its happening.
and i like that feeling.
today was a good day.
:)

Tags: bus, necklace, nestle tollhouse
Current Location: Beast Of The Black Forest
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Postmortem Promises

sometimes i wish i was more loyal.
it seems that recently i've been completely neutral to situations in which id normally freak out or panic in.
it's almost like i stopped caring. in general.
i have no idea whyyyy >.< and it kinda bothers mee.
then theres how im not really that loyal. 
i wish i met someone who DIDN'T take that personally.
because it really isn't personal. geez >.>
i think i just have trouble caring about things, because im not scared of fucking anything up, and i have a mentality in which if anything fucks up, at least i have the comfort in knowing that it fucked up because of ME and not because someone else fucked it up for me. 
it's weird.
then theres how people these days become accustomed to spreading around the phrases 'i love/hate you' as if it was some sort of std. 
'ily' actually fucking means alot to me.
and so does 'i hate you.'

i just hope
that when i do say things like that 
people realize i mean it.
and i'm not just contributing to this verbal std epidemic that is becoming increasingly contagious.

it bothers me.
that someone that once said 'ily'
switches gears on me in the blink of an eye. and all for petty reasons.

nonetheless as i am becoming seemingly annoyed at the people i once considered friends,
i am also becoming slowly more content with myself.
and that makes me feel good.
not in an arrogant fashion, or anything like that.
my rock bottom self confidence issues are a bit better now, is all(:
it's taken 3 years, but i guess i'm finally coming around.

as of now i just want to take all these things that slightly annoy me, and put them aside for a few days,
get an okay tan,
and make my interior match my exterior.

Tags: andre, ily, sandra, sarasota, stds, xiomara
Current Location: my spinny purple chair.
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Noahs Ark- Cocorosie

I went to my friend xiomaras house
because it was raining and we couldnt go anywhere else
and we just sat there and watched movies and pigged out.
it was fun.
funny how we're becoming better friends each time we hang out


garden state is the best rainy day movie i can think of
and thats just what we watched.
zach braff is a cinematic genius<3

Current Mood: satisfied
Current Music: Beetlejuice Soundtrack

finished algebra 1 forever 
hopefully.

realized how much im gonna miss ricky 
sixth period won't be the same without you, babe

went to charlies house and went deaf 
lmao.

realized how many  assholes i actually mistook for friends

got done with astronomy finals

and made up with sandra
ilysandi<3

Current Mood: crappy
Current Music: metric